My Journey Through Grief

On New Years Eve I wrote a post to share with you all my thoughts on 2015. Those who read it, or know me personally, will know that I lost my beautiful mummy and best friend to cancer in September.
It is the most horrible disease and at the mere age of 26, I unfortunately know too much about it.
I am far too knowledgable about all of the treatments and their side affects, every pain relief medication and the way the body shuts down. I wish I was naive to this world but nothing can change that now.

Over the past 5 months I have trawled the internet trying to find people who understand me and who have also lost a parent at a young age. There is surprisingly not a lot of information, only websites and support groups for children and teenagers or adults in general. Most of the adults you hear from have parent's who have died in their 70's and 80's. Losing a parent is always a heartbreaking experience, however at this age it is a little more expected, and the children would usually have their own families already.

So where does this leave me? There is a smaller amount of us who are young adults; perhaps still living at home, without children or husbands, who are thrown into a terrifying world without our loved ones at an age where we never expected them to be gone.
I won't have my mum at my wedding. She will never meet my children.

I want to start sharing my ups and downs and my path through grief with you all.
I want to create a place where I can safely write down my feelings, partly as a form of therapy for myself, but also to help anyone else in the same position.
I have found that it is a very lonely place to be a bereaved 20-something, so I want to create a little community on the internet for us.

I will still be writing my beauty and fashion posts, and mixed in will still be lifestyle...but sadly this is part of my life now, so for me, it makes sense.
It's very easy to read blogs and see a perfect life that you envy...we all are guilty of it. However life isn't perfect for anyone, and I want this space to be real.

I hope that you will all share in my journey and that I can help a few people not to feel alone.